The Dreadful TWW (Two Week Wait)

Most people trying to conceive, especially those going through the battle infertility is, know about the TWW.  This is the time after ovulation leading up to the period.  The two weeks in which you might be pregnant, you're hoping you're pregnant, you're paying attention to every little bodily function wondering if it could be a sign, aka symptom spotting.... not a very nice habit to get into.  Never the less, it's simply impossible to not think about the possibility of being pregnant during this time, especially after having 2, 6 day old miniature "babies" put inside you.  It's comparable to Chinese water torture I'd say. :)

So here I sit... tomorrow makes 6dp6dt, for all you that aren't down with the lingo that means, 6 days past 6 day transfer. Rocket science I know. That means those little embryos have been in as long as they are old.  That's cool.  Aside from some random cramping in the first few days after the transfer, some recent lower back pain and wicked heart burn this afternoon, I've really had no symptoms.  Then again, when I think about it in terms of the fact I'm only technically 3 weeks and 5 days pregnant if at all, I wouldn't even have missed my period yet, so... why would there be any symptoms?! That's what makes this TWW such TORTURE!  After such hype and such a big event, it seems that there should be something to show from it.  There will be (hopefully), it'll just take 9 months to really see it.  The good news is that I only have 3 more full days to get through until my BETA blood test.  What that is is a blood test that detects the pregnancy hormone HCG earlier on than a home pregnancy test.  That day will also mark the 4 week mark.  The only trouble is that I go in first thing in the morning and don't hear back until that afternoon, so technically I'll still have several more hours of Chinese water torture to endure.  

Here's a look at what's going on inside me.  When watching this, keep in mind that our blastocysts were hatching when they were transferred back in.  That will give you an idea of where we started.

 

I'll leave you with this thought... the other day my Mom made a point to ask if I had been listening to Classical music for the babies? I've heard this and I said, Does that really work?  Mom says, "ABSOLUTELY!"  So, just to make sure we try everything I've been listening to some really good tunes lately.  My favorite Pandora station is The Piano Guys!  They're rad and they play many popular songs, only on instruments.  It's beautiful.  The other day I was getting discouraged about this whole process and I went to lay down on the couch and pray while listening to my sweet tunes.  The first song that came on was this one.  I'm sure you'll know the song, but in case you don't know all the words, please read along with the lyrics as you listen.  I only knew the words to the chorus as the time but that nearly brought me to tears.  When the song ended I immediately looked up the lyrics.  I'm taking it as a sign from God that everything will work out perfectly.

"A Thousand Years"

Christina Perry

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone,
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

**I just cried again listening to it.**

Friday morning will be here before we know it and we'd appreciate the continued prayers throughout this week for patience, good and healthy growth of our babies, and overall great news for our hopefully expanding family.  From our hearts to yours... THANK YOU!  

XOXO Lauren, Ryan and hopefully 2 poppyseed sized babies.