Cycle Day 3, It All Begins!

Last night and this morning left me an emotional wreck.  I'm not sure that I can blame it entirely on my period, I'm sure it plays a part but I'm not sure it's all to blame.  There are so many emotions and feelings going on in me.  Last night I laid in bed with tears rolling down the sides of my face, not even really knowing exactly why.  Ryan's great at calming me down, but not much could help me last night, I just needed to get it out.  The whole process of IVF is this huge unknown.  I like adventures, but this one is different.  We're paying a lot of money, and we have no idea what the outcome will be.  I have to get shots every night, blood drawn on a regular basis, etc.  I shouldn't be complaining because some people have it a lot worse and this is only temporary, but I was still emotional.  So I laid awake praying, crying, thinking, researching, reading, etc.  I finally fell asleep around 11:30pm which is late for me.  And today I feel like my eyes are puffy bags. You know, sort of like two big airbags have gone off on my face! Not cute!

I took the morning off work to go to my first official IVF Doctor's appointment.  In that time, my beautiful sister, Kristin (who's a nurse) came over and helped me figure out these meds.  There are so many and I'm not a medical person… I'm very thankful to the people that are in the medical field in my family.  She got the syringe ready for my first injection tonight that Ryan was going to give to me.  That was going to be interesting in itself.    Then I raced off to my appointment.

They did an MET (Mock Embryo Transfer) which I guess gives them information to know how far up to stick the embryos when comes time for that.  Then he did an ultrasound to look at my uterus lining and check out my follicles.  I was told that I have 19 follicles on one side and 18 on the other.  Looking good for lots of eggs.  He said the lining looks good and everything looks perfect to start everything.  The one thing we need to pay close attention to is all my follicles.  Seeing as I have the possibility of making a lot of eggs, he wants to make sure it stays in a safe number. This could lead to OHSS (don't ask me what it is because it's confusing, but it's not ideal to have) so Depending on how I progress, will determine the kind of trigger shot he gives me.  If he feels that there are too many follicles, he said that he'll give me Luperon (an alternative trigger shot) in which case we would have to freeze everything and wait to transfer the following month.  While we'd really like to get this party started, I am extremely aware of the dangers and really want to make sure we make all the right choices, so if that's the best thing to do, I'm all for it.  Time will tell!  I can say that I feel a lot better after my appointment today.  I'm back to that excited state. It was also fun to see the ultrasound and start thinking about seeing a baby in there in the coming months.  It's all becoming so real!

I'm well aware this this pic shows virtually

nothing, but it's the beginning of a new home

and new life for our baby/ies.

And as far as my first injection is concerned.  Ryan was supposed to give me the shot and he said to me earlier "Are you nervous to have me give you your shot?"  Yeah, kind of!  He says, "Well, it if makes you feel any better, I'm a little nervous to give it to you!"  Help us!!!   Thankfully, my mom (who used to be a nurse) was able to come by and give it to me.  Ryan was able to watch and see how to do it in the future.  This made me feel so much better (as well as him) and I'm thankful that my mom is able to be part of this process.  Thanks for all your love and support mom!  We couldn't do it without you!!
xoxo

 My sister, mom and I - the best supporters ever!

For now, we continue to pray! Thanks for all your prayers and support as well!