Random Thoughts/The Power of Prayer

Yesterday was a good day, a rough day, a sore day, a lazy day and also a very exciting day!  I came home after the egg retrieval and the only comfortable position I could find was laying down.  I took roughly 6 more naps after my killer hour long induced nap (I'm not even sure how that's possible, but it felt good.)  It hurt to sit up since it put to much pressure on everything "down there" so when I did sit, it was on the side of a "cheek" in a leaned over position. Not real comfortable! Whenever I walked anywhere (primarily to the bathroom after all the liquids I was trying to get down) I had to hold pressure on my lower abdomen so I couldn't feel the shaking around of everything quite so severely.  And taking a pee, mercy… that pressure hurt too!  I remained laying down with my trusty hot pack on my stomach all day and all night long.  And the good news, is that I slept all night and feel so much better today! I took the day off work today, just in case, though in reality, I totally could have gone in.  It just would have been a REALLY rough day had I felt anything like I did yesterday.  So, it's turned into a day to get homework done for my Master's (which was very much needed since I'm world's best procrastinator!) And here I am, ADDing, after an hour and a half of homework, writing a post.  Such is life.

On to my thoughts… while laying in bad over the last 24 hours I've had several thoughts.  One of which hit me pretty hard.  That is, the POWER of PRAYER! I'm a big believer in prayer and pray regularly.  When thinking about this whole process I realized just how much prayer has gone into it.  Over the past 2 years while we've been trying to get pregnant naturally, we'd of course pray together that we'd be blessed with a baby.  I hate to say this, but after that long, it seems that there is little value left in that prayer.  I know that's not true and that our time will come, but if we're being honest here… that's how I felt.  These are some of the things I've learned about prayer during this process:

#1 - I/We pray a lot more.  We have more specific prayers, as every step of this journey is a process.  I've learned that it's entirely too much to take this on alone so we've included much of our family and friends into this journey with us.  Which leads me to point #2…
#2 - Knowing that others out there are praying for us… saying specific prayers for us and holding us in the forefronts of their minds and thoughts throughout the last week and a half has been an incredibly overwhelming feeling.  I cannot tell you how many phone calls, texts, FB messages, etc I've received from these people to check in on us, to wish us luck, let us know they've been praying for us, etc.  There is no way I'd be strong enough to remain as calm as I have without all your thoughts and prayers.  We've felt them and they've been answered, so thank you!
#3 - I've realized how much more FAITH I've had to put on God during this time.  I'm a bit controlling (I must get it from my mom! :)) and I like to know what to expect and when.  This has not been one of those processes where that is feasible.  We've had to be flexible and ready for change.  It's all about timing and it's impossible to know what that timing will look like, so I had a tendency to stress.  I stressed about getting the meds on time, how the injections would feel, how the meds would effect me, how my follicles would grow, the timing of the egg retrieval, being put under for the procedure, etc.  I've told myself (and God) several times that I have to let go.  I cannot hold on to all these things because ultimately, I have no control over them anyways.  I have to let go and let God.  He has a plan for us.  He knows what the outcome is going to be from all this and I have absolutely NO reason to stress! All I have to do is trust Him and relax.  Our time to have a baby will be here when it's the right time.  We know and trust that God's plan is far better than our own plan.